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This past weekend a big group of us from Burlington headed to Durham, NC to attend the Onething conference that IHOP-KC puts on in different cities.

While I was sitting there, worshiping Jesus with hundreds of kids, teens, and young adults, I was thinking about two of the passages in scripture that “one thing” is mentioned.

Ps. 27:4- “One thing I have asked from the lord, that I shall seek; that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the Lord and to meditate in His temple.”

Luke 10:39-42- “She had a sister called Mary, who was seated at the Lord’s feet, listening to His world. But Martha was distracted with all of her preparations; and she came up to him and said, ‘Lord, do You not care that my sister has left me to do all the serving alone? Then tell her to help me.’ but the Lord answered and said to her, “Martha, Martha, you are worried and bothered about so many things; but only one thing is necessary, for Mary has chosen the good part, which shall not be taken away from her.”

The first passage from Psalms is King David crying out for the one thing that he wants even in the midst of his enemies. The second passage, Mary chose to sit at Jesus’ feet even when it wasn’t what she was supposed to be doing. Her sister made it clear, “she needs to be helping me!” But Jesus said that she had chosen the one thing necessary, and that it wouldn’t be taken away from her.

For a long time I have considered myself a Mary (although I know that I tend to be a Martha at times, busy and distracted by so many things), because I love to sit at Jesus’ feet and listen to His word. It is the calling I believe that is on my life. To first minister to the Lord, and second go to the nations.

As I was sitting at the Onething conference I was thinking how both of the other intercessory missionaries here at IHOP-AC, David Gordon and David Rickman are named David. The calling on their lives are also similar to mine! They have chosen one thing for the rest of their lives, to dwell in the house of the Lord, to gaze upon His beauty and to meditate in His temple. They were named for their destinies by their mother’s even before they were born!

I felt left out as I also wished I had been named after my destiny. And then I realized: I am! My name is Amanda MARY. My parents named me MARY and for basically ever, I hated my middle name. BUT. But I am now in love with it! I am named after the calling on my life and I was named this before I was even born!

I am a Mary, I have been called to sit at His feet, listen to His word and choose the one thing necessary!

THANKS MOM AND DAD for naming me MARY! This is soooo special to me now and is a blessing to me!!!!


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This is team 1 and team 2 working on team building activities! The Lord was really dealing with me and exposing me and my selfishness during these activities! Help me, Lord!

This is me helping run games the 2nd week with Jeff. He is one of my best friends brothers!

We worked pretty well together…until…

There is one game where you call out random items for the campers to bring into the center and place in the game leaders hands.

Things like a braclet, toilet paper, hair, pastor, or earwax.

Well, without me knowing (since the translator was speaking) Jeff  planned for all the runner who bring the things into the center to have them WIPE the EARWAX (from a campers EAR) onto my ARM!!!!!!!!

It was the most disgusting experience of my life, to this day. I was furious. I stomped off the field.

BUT Jeff apologized and I forgave him and got over my anger. It was actually pretty funny. The campers LOVED it.

Here I am watching intently to make sure no one is doing anything illegal during this game of crab soccer.

Romanians are AMAZING soccer players. And they were even exceptional in this special edition of the game! 🙂 And it was pretty hilarious to watch all these big guys crawling around on the ground!

Katrina sprained her ankle really bad one of the last days at campe the 2nd week! We got to go to a Romanian hospital and they put a cast on it! But the worst part was that she had no crutches for the remaining time and had to be carried everywhere!

She was pretty happy to get back to US and get crutches!

The 2nd week of camp is always HUGE and has older kids. Some of these kids have been coming for 5 years or more! It is really incredible to see them year after year and to watch them grow in love for Jesus!

On our way home after camp and during our flights to the US, we had a layover in Munich, Germany….and while we were there….

We got to go into the CITY! We were only there for about an hour. But it was totally worth it to get to see Munich!!!

All of us walking and taking pictures! Katrina had to be carried because there were no wheel chairs available! The boys were a blessing, to say the least!

Girls in Germany!



2nd week was a week of exposure for me. The Lord was showing me MANY areas where I still needed to become like Him! But He really worked in me!

Not only that but it was incredible to watch the campers worship Jesus. Many were dancing and rejoicing and cry and just experiencing the Lord!

I got to pray and minister with girls almost every night and many got saved! There were also quite a few who were renewed in their passion for Jesus!

The Lord is so good to let us go and minister and share His love with the WORLD!

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pic taken from timrohrer.com

I am going through one of those “seasons”,  something like a wilderness. One of those times where you pray that it is just a season. When you have to be conscious to not throw pity parties. When you have to remind yourself that God does love you, and His love is the only love that really matters. When you have to speak to your soul continually, to keep it from despairing.

One of those seasons where it seems like everything has gone wrong, just when you thought you couldn’t handle anything else.

You know those times. When it is really easy to be sad, and even kind of comforting because hey, you are going through a hard time, you deserve to be sad. Every little thing makes you sad. Things like your best friend didn’t text you back fast enough. Or you feel left out when you aren’t invited to things because you had other plans. (here I roll my eyes at the ridiculousness of it all)

Well, this is where I have been the past couple days. Just before writing this post I was venting to the Lord all the “woe is me” problems I am having. I even would smile and roll my eyes at myself as I would write selfish and stupid things. But I wanted to be honest with Him. At the end of it though, I remembered that no one can steal my joy. (A post at this blog reminded me: Kingdom Twindom.) It is my choice to give it up.

The Lord really opened my eyes to this truth during my internship at IHOP-ATL in 2008.  The truth is this:

Joy is a choice.

It is our choice to choose joy. Why? Because we have access to fullness of joy. It is found in His presence. (Ps. 16:11) It isn’t something that is taken from us without us having a say in it. No one can take our joy. Not even the gravest of circumstances or the most horrible of people.

Because there is a secret. Learning joy in all things. Learning contentment in all things. It is possible and it is found in HIM! Letting our mind, will and emotions concentrate on the most Beautiful One!

So what do you choose today? Even though my feelings or circumstances may say something else, I choose joy today!!! Pour out Your presence on us  Lord, that we would encounter the FULLNESS OF JOY!

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Love-Part 2

How can You say, “Return to Me.”? Does that mean you want me even though I am so dark? How can You be so good? Really? You want me to come back? Even though it seems that I don’t love You? Do You know I really do? Because I really do. Do You see deep down in me that crazy thirst I have for You? I know I will never be satisfied any where else! You do want me to approach You boldly? I can be confident? So You aren’t really like what I thought? It seems I’ve thought wrongly about You! Of course You knew who I was and the mistakes I would make before You chose me, and You still choose me? What kind of God are You? You are gracious, compassionate, slow to anger and abounding in lovingkindness! How could I have forgotten!? You are love and if You are love, then how could You NOT love me? It is in Your character and nature to call me lovely! If you would not love me, then You would not be God! So You do love me, don’t You? Oh what a wonderful thing to hear! This is why I can approach You boldly! Love covers a multitude of sins! O Lover of my soul, let this truth and declaration of Love, that You are, would seep deep down into every fiber of who I am. That I would believe You! You forgive me! You are the God that says “Return.” and “Come to Me”. Here I am, my Jesus. I return! I come to You! I can only be satisfied in You! Oh that I would continue to see You rightly! You are love and You are in love with me! You have ravished my heart, my Beloved.

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prayer room that we are currently in! It is also an art gallery! Look at all those awesome paintings!! David Rickman’s grandfather painted ALL of these!


Tonight as I sit in the prayer room I’ve been thinking about choices.

God has given us the ability to choose.

To choose Him or something else.

To choose the things of His kingdom or to choose the things of the world.

Every moment, of every day, we make choices.

There are many times when I don’t choose Him or His ways.

Today I prayed: “Lord, I wish I didn’t have a freewill! I wish you would force me to choose You!” This prayed as I was battling with my own desires.

But oh it moves my heart when I voluntarily choose Him over other things.

Oh how it ravishes His heart when I voluntarily choose Him over lesser pleasures.

Do you know the passage where Jesus says “but only one thing is necessary, for she has chosen the good part, which shall not be taken away from her.”?

What did she choose?

Mary of Bethany chose to sit at Jesus’ feet and listen to His word. (Luke 10:38-42)

She chose God over everything else. And Jesus said it will not be taken away. And that she had chosen the one thing necesary.

God is the one thing necesary that we need to chose. Over every other choice we will ever make. We need to choose God.

Have you chosen God? Have you made the decision to live for Him? Or to continue to chose Him every day?

Remember: It is the ONE THING NECESSARY above every other thing.

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Desire arising

**scroll down three posts for David Rickman’s Interview!**

I have a desire arising.

A desire to blog again.

A desire to write again.

A desire to express again.

Whether anyone reads or not.

The desire is arising.


I have a desire arising.

A desire to explore the heart of God more.

A desire to love Him radically again.

A desire to be obsessed with nothing less than Him.

I am not there yet.

But the desire is arising.


I have a desire arising.

A desire to be content in all things.

A desire to find joy.

A desire to lay it all down.

Found only in the place of His presence.

And so the desire is arising.


I have a desire arising.

A desire to not stop seeking until all my desires are found.

A desire to delight myself in the Lord, for He will give me the desires of my heart.

Arise desire!

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Oh my beating heart…

**scroll down to post below for interview of David Rickman!**

Oh my beating heart. How you deceive me.

Oh my beating heart. How you beat at the wrong times.

Oh my beating heart. Will you ever be tamed?

Oh my beating heart. Will you ever beat with increasing speed for the right things?

Oh my beating heart. How can it be? That the very things I want you to beat for, you don’t and the things I don’t want you to beat for, you do?

Oh my beating heart. How confused you are.

Oh my beating heart. Won’t you listen?

Oh my beating heart. When will you beat in rhythm with the Spirit?

Oh my beating heart. When will you stop beating for the things of the flesh?

Oh beating heart of my Bridegroom. When will you come beat in me?

Oh beating heart of my Bridegroom. When will we collide?

Oh beating heart of my Bridegroom. How can it be that my beating heart still doesn’t believe the love that flows from you?

Oh beating heart of my Bridegroom. I want my beating heart to beat with a ferocity for you.

Come and beat in me.

Rescue this beating heart. until. it. stops. and eternity welcomes me.

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