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I love you. Simply. Complexly. But Lord, words seem so fake. Words seem so easy to say but hard to do. I write, endlessly, of my love and devotion to You. For 5 years now. But then I can still do the exact opposite that I write. How can this be? Why can’t I live the standard, consistently, that I so desire to? I know it is possible. but why did I fail? Why did I give in, when my greatest desire is to be HOLY AS YOU ARE HOLY? When I say I love You, I mean it. But didn’t You say, “If you love Me, obey My commandments.”? So wouldn’t my lack of obedience, therefore, proclaim “I DON’T LOVE YOU!”? How can it be then, that You say, “Return to Me.”? I have forsaken You, the fountain of living waters! To hew for myself broken cisterns that hold NO WATER! It would seem to me that I should run in shame from the Holy One. That I should do time away from You until I am “good” again. Or if I do approach You, shouldn’t it be that I should do what I can to make up? Wouldn’t that be what You want from me? More prayers, more scriptures memorized, more songs of worship sung? Because You probably can’t stand me, You’ve seen the darkness in me. Let me try to cover up, Lord! You didn’t know I was like this, did You? When You let me enter Your kingdom, I’m sure You were expecting perfection. I know, I’ve shattered all Your thoughts of me, right? You can’t really love me knowing all You know about me. How can You love me when my heart has betrayed You? When I’ve broken the promises I vowed never to break? O Lord, how could You really love one such as me?

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prayer room that we are currently in! It is also an art gallery! Look at all those awesome paintings!! David Rickman’s grandfather painted ALL of these!

 

Tonight as I sit in the prayer room I’ve been thinking about choices.

God has given us the ability to choose.

To choose Him or something else.

To choose the things of His kingdom or to choose the things of the world.

Every moment, of every day, we make choices.

There are many times when I don’t choose Him or His ways.

Today I prayed: “Lord, I wish I didn’t have a freewill! I wish you would force me to choose You!” This prayed as I was battling with my own desires.

But oh it moves my heart when I voluntarily choose Him over other things.

Oh how it ravishes His heart when I voluntarily choose Him over lesser pleasures.

Do you know the passage where Jesus says “but only one thing is necessary, for she has chosen the good part, which shall not be taken away from her.”?

What did she choose?

Mary of Bethany chose to sit at Jesus’ feet and listen to His word. (Luke 10:38-42)

She chose God over everything else. And Jesus said it will not be taken away. And that she had chosen the one thing necesary.

God is the one thing necesary that we need to chose. Over every other choice we will ever make. We need to choose God.

Have you chosen God? Have you made the decision to live for Him? Or to continue to chose Him every day?

Remember: It is the ONE THING NECESSARY above every other thing.

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Desire arising

**scroll down three posts for David Rickman’s Interview!**

I have a desire arising.

A desire to blog again.

A desire to write again.

A desire to express again.

Whether anyone reads or not.

The desire is arising.

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I have a desire arising.

A desire to explore the heart of God more.

A desire to love Him radically again.

A desire to be obsessed with nothing less than Him.

I am not there yet.

But the desire is arising.

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I have a desire arising.

A desire to be content in all things.

A desire to find joy.

A desire to lay it all down.

Found only in the place of His presence.

And so the desire is arising.

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I have a desire arising.

A desire to not stop seeking until all my desires are found.

A desire to delight myself in the Lord, for He will give me the desires of my heart.

Arise desire!

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October Newsletter

**scroll down two posts for the interview of David Rickman!**

Here is my October Newsletter. I haven’t done one since February! Crazy! Life has been busy and therefore I have neglected this part of my ministry! Forgive me!

October Newsletter Part 1!

October Newsletter Part 2

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Oh my beating heart…

**scroll down to post below for interview of David Rickman!**

Oh my beating heart. How you deceive me.

Oh my beating heart. How you beat at the wrong times.

Oh my beating heart. Will you ever be tamed?

Oh my beating heart. Will you ever beat with increasing speed for the right things?

Oh my beating heart. How can it be? That the very things I want you to beat for, you don’t and the things I don’t want you to beat for, you do?

Oh my beating heart. How confused you are.

Oh my beating heart. Won’t you listen?

Oh my beating heart. When will you beat in rhythm with the Spirit?

Oh my beating heart. When will you stop beating for the things of the flesh?

Oh beating heart of my Bridegroom. When will you come beat in me?

Oh beating heart of my Bridegroom. When will we collide?

Oh beating heart of my Bridegroom. How can it be that my beating heart still doesn’t believe the love that flows from you?

Oh beating heart of my Bridegroom. I want my beating heart to beat with a ferocity for you.

Come and beat in me.

Rescue this beating heart. until. it. stops. and eternity welcomes me.

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This interview is from a couple of years ago…enjoy getting to know David Rickman!!! 🙂

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This is my next interview of the IHOP-AC staff members. I did my first one about a month ago on our Director, David Gordon. You can click here to see that one.

David Rickman: Intercessory Missionary at IHOP-AC

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This is David Rickman. He is 23 years old. He has an associates degree from Liberty University.

He is a full-time intercessory missionary! He has given his life to standing before the Lord in intercession and ministering to the Lord in intimacy!

I was able to sit down with him and ask him a few questions about his life as an intercessory missionary.

How did you get involved in the prayer room?

I started really pursuing things in the Lord in a new way in 2003, this was a real season of hunger. (At the age of 16…I wanted to add that because he really knows Jesus and its because he started at a young age.) In 2005 David Gordon took me to IHOP-KC for a conference. I knew I wanted to give my life to this, though I didn’t really understand it. The 2006-2007 school year I moved back to Burlington, NC (where he is from) and I joined David Gordon in prayer meetings in the mornings, from about 8-12. I also did online classes until my schooling was finished. Then I began to pursue the prayer room full-time. I have been living this lifestyle since August 2006.

What impact has being an intercessory missionary had on your life?

Spiritually it has had the impact of me daily growing in the knowledge of God and growing in the word and prayer. Encounter transforms every area of your life. This lifestyle requires lots of sacrifice in other realms of your life as well. Such as relationships, money etc. Because when you put yourself before God you see His worth in a new lifht and you begin to come into agreement with Him in a greater level and your love for Him grows and by seeing who He is your whole life shifts. Your identity is formed in this place. The way you see other people is shaped by how God sees them because you are coming into agreement with God.

What are your “roles” at IHOP-AC?

My identity and function is intercessor first and foremost. In intercession I partner with God’s heart in releasing His purposes in the earth. I also minister to the Lord and from that place of intimacy I exercise His authority that He has given me, through prayer. I am also involved as a worship leader. I minister to the Lord before the people in the prayer room. And lead them in worship during intercession sets and during devotional sets as well. I’m involved in teaching at The Way School of Ministry on occasion. I also have other administration responsibilities. (Side note: he did not want to list them all, but basically he does almost everything from printing all the notes for all the classes and EGS to designing logos and making videos. We don’t know what we’d do without him!)

What would you say to someone who was considering living this lifestyle?

There is nothing more noble to give yourself to. In doing so you are giving yourself to something that affects change on the earth. The primary reason night and day prayer exists is because Jesus is worthy of it. That has to be the vision that sustains you in this lifestyle. Because when we stop seeing Him as worthy then living this lifestyle becomes irrelevant.

What aspect of being in the prayer room is your favorite?

I would say I love encountering the Lord in the place of intimacy, meditating on the word and singing it, and letting that word become alive within me. And from that place speaking those words back to Him in intercession and partnering with Him.

What is the hardest?

Barrenness, when you feel like God is not in the room and you are plowing ground in the Spirit. Thats hard. Also, when you see your darkness brought forth in His light.

What is one of your favorite verses?

John 17:24-26. It is the mission statement of Jesus. His prayer is going to be answered and I am just positioning myself to be a part of seeing that come into fruition. To be with Him where He is- to partner and agree with His heart. To see His glory- to encounter Him in all of His beauty and by doing so loving Him with the love that the Father loves Him.

What do you see yourself doing in the future?

Psalm 132. “Until I find a dwelling place.” I will be faithful until….

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Thank you David Rickman for sharing with us!

We praise the Lord for David Rickman and all that he does for the Lord at IHOP-AC. He is a man of the word and he has so much revelation of it that you know he spends hours in the presence of Jesus. It just amazes me!

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