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Me, Jen Taitt, & Jenny Potts–this is actually in 2007, I don’t have digital copies of us in 2005.

I enter my sophomore year in college with freedom I never thought possible! I was counting the months that it had been since I saw my ex boyfriend. Each day and month was a victory for me! I couldn’t wait to say I hadn’t seen him for a year!

The first semester was pretty uneventful. There were no boys in my life, which was great. I was great friends with Jen Taitt and Jenny Potts. I was focusing on my schooling and Jesus.

In Jan. of 2005 Jen, Jenny and I met a guy who we all became really close friends with. We all hung out, worshipped together, studied together, ate together and just did everything together. It was a really fun semester full of friends and living life.

I also met a family that semester who I was able to minister to in amazing ways! They had 4 children and Jenny and I basically were able to pour into their lives for about 4 months. We spent the night, we cleaned, we cooked them dinner and we took them to church. And we really started to appreciate our parents, alot! Taking care of kids is a HANDFUL! But we totally enjoyed it.

I really liked this guy that we were hanging out with. But this was the first time in my life I really wanted to let God have His way. I wasn’t going to manipulate things, I wasn’t going to try and see if he liked me. I was just praying and letting God have his way. So my heart was really free. My heart was in a great place. I wanted more then anything to please God with my relationships since I hadn’t done that ever before.

So we hung out for about 8 months, and it was a great 8 months. God did so much in my life and taught me sooo much. At the end of everything, the Lord clearly spoke and showed me that this was not the man I was supposed to marry. Which was fine by me because I was able to keep my heart pretty free!

During this time I was seeking the Lord, but wasn’t totally sold out. I just didn’t know what I was supposed to do to completely live for the Lord. Things in my head weren’t compeltely connecting to my heart. But I knew there was more to this thing we called Christianity. And the Lord was about to completely turn my life, and my heart upside down!  These were just the events (very important) events that led up to it!

More to come in a part 4!

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Sunshine worship

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Sometimes I can’t find the words to say,

to express the way I feel about you.

Sometimes I can’t find the melody to sing.

All I can do is whisper, I love you.

My heart is sick with love.

A love that moves me to love you Jesus.

This love is so hard to bear,

that I find myself leaning on You, Jesus.

Sometimes I can’t move at all.

And all I can do is be still and know that you are God.

Sometimes I can’t speak at all,

knowing that you hear the groanings of my heart.

I have found a better love, I have found a better love in You.

by: Jess Wright

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I had a terrible emotional morning.

If I’m just going to be honest. Which I am.

I don’t know whats wrong exactly.

I just kept wanting to cry during church today. It wasn’t necessarily because of anything bad, maybe I think I just felt misunderstood.

Misunderstood with what I am doing with my life. Like people hate me or look down on me. Which, by the way, they do.

The pastor kept talking about how we need to encourage the young generation to be passionate about God and know that He has a calling on their lives and we can’t take them away from what God is telling them to do.

And I can’t ever stop what I am doing or my life would be TERRIBLE. Do you understand? Maybe not. People wonder why I am doing what I do, or wonder why I’m not in college or getting a job or doing something better. It is sooo discouraging! Why would you try to distract someone from doing what the Lord has destined them to do?

I am doing what I am doing because it is the MANDATE for my life. My life has a PURPOSE and a CALLING and if I did ANYTHING ELSE I would be failing at life. I would be someone other then who I am supposed to be.

I have to waste my life on Him or I would die!

So even if EVERY person in the WORLD came against me, or tried to discourage me, let me just tell you, I won’t give up. I won’t stop loving Jesus radically. I won’t stop living a lifestyle of prayer and fasting. I won’t stop being an intercessory missionary as my occupation. No way. Not on ANYTHING.

I would gladly give up my life for Jesus.

And I’m saying yes everyday to letting Him have His way with me.

And even if I feel misunderstood forever, its ok. I’m in love with God, and God’s in love with me. This is life. This is success. I wouldn’t trade it for ANYTHING.




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This is what I always imagine in my head when I think of being confident and free in Jesus Christ.

I can’t wait to be that girl.

I’ve been struggling the past few days with some insecurities.

This is what the Lord has been showing me:

Pride breeds insecurity.

And confidence (in Jesus Christ) produces and cultivates humility.

Because when I get insecure about something I am automatically getting offended or my pride is getting hurt. The more pride I have the more insecurities I seem to have because I care more about what people say or think of me.

When I find that I am being confident in the Lord and who He has made me and not worrying or caring about anything else, those things that would usually offend me, I can take in humility. When I know who I am because of the Lord I can go low, because my value is found in Him!

Help me Jesus be this woman, confident, free and humble!


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Just wanted to let all you worried readers out there know….

My charger has been found!!! WOOHOO! Praise the

Lord! 🙂

Why is this great?

1) Saves myself or my parents (thanks for the offer dad!) the money for a new one.

2) My phone is charging and I will be able to use it again!

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What is broken you ask?

This:

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My car.

But just wait for the post titled: New car!!

Because it will be coming.

The Lord is providing me with a new car!

I just don’t know when yet, but I know it is coming!

Bless the Lord!

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(*UPDATED*)

My roommate gave me a red pen to replace the one I lost! Yay Jesus, and Jess.

And if you want to pray specifics concerning the car that the Lord is going to provide for me check out this post. The story about this car…this morning at the prayer room David Gordon prayed for the Lord to provide the car, and he asked me specifics. I haven’t really thought about specifics since I would be happy with ANYTHING that was reliable. But I said 2 door, shiny paint, sporty, silver or champagne and at least a 2002. Here is Jess’s interpretation of that CAR!!! :):)

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Here is my next IHOP-AC interview!

My first two:

David Gordon

David Rickman

Jesse Taitt: Intercessory Missionary at IHOP-AC!

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This is Jesse Taitt. He is 22 years old. He went to Liberty University for less then 1 semester and then dropped out to join the prayer movement! He has done an internship at IHOP-KC for 6 months 2 years ago, and he did the same internship as me here at IHOP-AC.

He has been an intercessory missionary for about 2 years now. He is so passionate about the Lord and what the Lord is doing right now! He is a powerful intercessor and an amazing worship leader!

Here is his interview:

How did you get involved in the prayer room?

After high school, I went to college just like everyone else does. At the end of the first semester I went to IHOP-KC for a conference and saw people my age who genuinely loved the Lord, who prayed with passion, who wept with sorrow and who had joy too. After that conference the Lord told me to go there. (Jesse ended up going and doing the 6 month internship I mentioned above. And has been in the prayer room ever since!)

How is your life different now then before you were in the prayer room?

I’m still the same person with the same struggles as everyone else. But before graduating high school, I lived in the religious routine with no excitement or anticipation for the presence of the Lord. After graduation I began to desire to grow in deeper intimacy. Now, there is a desire for holiness which is growing each day. A desire for intimacy experientially. I have began to live a lifestyle of prayer and fasting. Anyone who knew me before wouldn’t say I was a person who prayed or fasted because I am a people person and prayer is so contemplative and meditative. And I really like food. 🙂

What would you say to someone who wanted to join the prayer movement as an intercessory missionary?

I would say that’s awesome, it’s going to be so exciting. Each person’s experience in the prayer room will be different, so there isn’t much I would say.

What is the best thing about the prayer room?

The best thing about it for me is that I get to meet with God. Be in the presence of the Lord. It doesn’t always look like a mountaintop experience but the valley’s bring your heart to surrender and tenderize your spirit.

What is the hardest thing about the prayer room?

The hardest thing is people that you are seeing 8 hours a day, every day for seemingly the rest of your life. You see their weaknesses, they see yours and you see each other trying to pursue the Lord. So you have to look past your own weaknesses, look beyond their weaknesses, through the eyes of grace and understand positionally we have all been granted the free girft of righteousness. Forgive, forgive, forgive. Ask for forgiveness, ask for forgiveness, ask for forgiveness.

What are your roles at IHOP-AC?

I pretty much have four things but one will be in the future. 1) lover of God 2) intercessory 3) worship leader and the fourth future one is preacher, but not a normal preacher, more like John the Baptist.

What is your favorite verse?

I have two, Joel 2:28 and 1 Cor. 15:51-53. Because they show the outpouring of the Holy Spirit on the bride to walk victoriously in power through the greatest trouble the world has ever known and ever will know unto the return of the Lord, the resurrection of the saints and our dwelling in eternal communion with Jesus.

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Thank you Jesse for sharing with us!


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