I had a terrible emotional morning.

If I’m just going to be honest. Which I am.

I don’t know whats wrong exactly.

I just kept wanting to cry during church today. It wasn’t necessarily because of anything bad, maybe I think I just felt misunderstood.

Misunderstood with what I am doing with my life. Like people hate me or look down on me. Which, by the way, they do.

The pastor kept talking about how we need to encourage the young generation to be passionate about God and know that He has a calling on their lives and we can’t take them away from what God is telling them to do.

And I can’t ever stop what I am doing or my life would be TERRIBLE. Do you understand? Maybe not. People wonder why I am doing what I do, or wonder why I’m not in college or getting a job or doing something better. It is sooo discouraging! Why would you try to distract someone from doing what the Lord has destined them to do?

I am doing what I am doing because it is the MANDATE for my life. My life has a PURPOSE and a CALLING and if I did ANYTHING ELSE I would be failing at life. I would be someone other then who I am supposed to be.

I have to waste my life on Him or I would die!

So even if EVERY person in the WORLD came against me, or tried to discourage me, let me just tell you, I won’t give up. I won’t stop loving Jesus radically. I won’t stop living a lifestyle of prayer and fasting. I won’t stop being an intercessory missionary as my occupation. No way. Not on ANYTHING.

I would gladly give up my life for Jesus.

And I’m saying yes everyday to letting Him have His way with me.

And even if I feel misunderstood forever, its ok. I’m in love with God, and God’s in love with me. This is life. This is success. I wouldn’t trade it for ANYTHING.

Here is my next IHOP-AC interview!

My first two:

David Gordon

David Rickman

Jesse Taitt: Intercessory Missionary at IHOP-AC!

This is Jesse Taitt. He is 22 years old. He went to Liberty University for less then 1 semester and then dropped out to join the prayer movement! He has done an internship at IHOP-KC for 6 months 2 years ago, and he did the same internship as me here at IHOP-AC.

He has been an intercessory missionary for about 2 years now. He is so passionate about the Lord and what the Lord is doing right now! He is a powerful intercessor and an amazing worship leader!

Here is his interview:

How did you get involved in the prayer room?

After high school, I went to college just like everyone else does. At the end of the first semester I went to IHOP-KC for a conference and saw people my age who genuinely loved the Lord, who prayed with passion, who wept with sorrow and who had joy too. After that conference the Lord told me to go there. (Jesse ended up going and doing the 6 month internship I mentioned above. And has been in the prayer room ever since!)

How is your life different now then before you were in the prayer room?

I’m still the same person with the same struggles as everyone else. But before graduating high school, I lived in the religious routine with no excitement or anticipation for the presence of the Lord. After graduation I began to desire to grow in deeper intimacy. Now, there is a desire for holiness which is growing each day. A desire for intimacy experientially. I have began to live a lifestyle of prayer and fasting. Anyone who knew me before wouldn’t say I was a person who prayed or fasted because I am a people person and prayer is so contemplative and meditative. And I really like food.

What would you say to someone who wanted to join the prayer movement as an intercessory missionary?

I would say that’s awesome, it’s going to be so exciting. Each person’s experience in the prayer room will be different, so there isn’t much I would say.

What is the best thing about the prayer room?

The best thing about it for me is that I get to meet with God. Be in the presence of the Lord. It doesn’t always look like a mountaintop experience but the valley’s bring your heart to surrender and tenderize your spirit.

What is the hardest thing about the prayer room?

The hardest thing is people that you are seeing 8 hours a day, every day for seemingly the rest of your life. You see their weaknesses, they see yours and you see each other trying to pursue the Lord. So you have to look past your own weaknesses, look beyond their weaknesses, through the eyes of grace and understand positionally we have all been granted the free girft of righteousness. Forgive, forgive, forgive. Ask for forgiveness, ask for forgiveness, ask for forgiveness.

What are your roles at IHOP-AC?

I pretty much have four things but one will be in the future. 1) lover of God 2) intercessory 3) worship leader and the fourth future one is preacher, but not a normal preacher, more like John the Baptist.

What is your favorite verse?

I have two, Joel 2:28 and 1 Cor. 15:51-53. Because they show the outpouring of the Holy Spirit on the bride to walk victoriously in power through the greatest trouble the world has ever known and ever will know unto the return of the Lord, the resurrection of the saints and our dwelling in eternal communion with Jesus.

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Thank you Jesse for sharing with us!

This is John and Gracey Guetterman.

They are intercessory missionaries at IHOP-AC with me. John is full-time in the prayer room. Gracey and John had also been working a full time job from their home. That was their main income to provide for them. Recently they lost their job. Which was totally from the Lord.

They are now going to be raising support to be able to continue in the house of prayer full-time.

They have no idea that I am asking this. But I want to challenge every person who is reading this post right now. I want to challenge you to give somehow, someway to John and Gracey. I don’t usually ask for money, especially not for myself, but I really felt the Lord leading me to do this.

You can check out their story and all about them at their blog.

You can give not only a one time gift, but you can support them monthly as well to help out with bills and monthly needs. You can e-mail them at johnguetterman@ihop-ac.org to talk to them personally.

Pray and seek the Lord, if He is speaking to you in any way to fund the prayer movement through these two then do it! The Lord LOVES those who give, especially to those in need. They are amazing and they LOVE the Lord!

DONATE ONLINE HERE!!!

You can also make checks out to

“IHOP-AC” with a sticky note with their names and send it to:

P.O. Box 3113

Burlington, NC 27217

Thank you so much for funding the prayer movement!

4 nights ago I was overwhelmed with excitement to come back to IHOP-AC! I can’t wait to be back and see all my friends and be with my fellow intercessors building the house of prayer in Alamance County! I feel the Lord’s zeal for this house and I am so thankful that I am a part of it! God is doing something in central North Carolina and He is desiring a dwelling place, so that He can shift things over that region! He desires friends who are going to partner with His heart and seek for His kingdom to come and His will to be done in North Carolina!

I am so proud of my friends who are faithfully giving their lives to this house. The Lord is so delighted with you! Don’t give up, keep going! He is so worth it! Things are happening that we don’t even know about, and we are setting ourselves up for ENCOUNTER WITH THE UNCREATED ONE! We are setting it up for ENCOUNTER for our REGION! Even in the smallness of what you guys are doing, it is HUGE! God is pouring out His grace and His strength!

I love you all! I can’t wait to be back and pursue this thing together! Its beautiful and so hard but so amazing and worth it! I LOVE WHAT YOU ARE DOING!

He is validating you in this worthy calling!

You are all missed and so loved!

Being an intercessory missionary is pretty amazing. But it really challenges your faith and trust in the Lord. I am full time at IHOP-AC but this does not mean that I am paid by IHOP-AC. We are a non-profit organization and we only get money that people give to us. I have to raise my own money to be full time. I became full time in January and I am still seeking the Lord to provide on a monthly basis. I know that eventually I will have people who are funding the prayer movement through me on a monthly basis, but right now I am still gradually getting there. I have one person who funds me monthly and then like two days ago I received two more! God is being so faithful!

Also, my car broke down on Valentine’s day, and I had no idea how I was going to pay for it, but I just drove it to the mechanics and trusted the Lord. (Probably the first time I’ve ever not cried when my car broke down.) And the next night the Lord provided the money to fix my car plus extra!

Then about two days later I received a bill in the mail for something I had no idea I had to pay, and I didn’t trust the Lord. I immediately teared up and worry rose in my heart. But David Gordon, the director of IHOP-AC, reminded me that the Lord is faithful and He will provide. And sure enough a couple days later He provided the money!

I am so blown away by God. He always provides, but there are times when worry still rises in my heart! Help me God!

I just wanted all of you to know how AMAZING our God is! He provides, trust in Him and He will take care of EVERYTHING! Seriously.