Sorry its been awhile, but here I am updating now. 
Death…
So Friday was a day of battle. I was walking in my flesh. It was horrible. This summer the Lord was really bringing me to a place where I know I have to die to myself and He has to live, and I was really excited about Him doing that. Well, He’s doing it now. And my flesh is crying out to live! It’s a war! He was trying to kill me Friday, and I was resisting Him with everything I had. But the Lord is so good! He keeps doing it today, and sometimes I’m like, when is this going to be over? I just want to die already! But then I realize its not just going to happen over night, and He is the one going to finish it not me. I AM CRUCIFIED WITH CHRIST! IT IS NO LONGER I THAT LIVES, BUT CHRIST IN ME! Woohoo! I cling to this promise!
Shevi and Lisa…
After our Encountering God Service (EGS) on Friday night, I drove about an hour away to my old youth pastor’s house (from high school). I love them so much and they have been such a huge and influential part of my life and with my journey with the Lord! I praise the Lord for them and how amazing they are! It’s incredible to see where I was when they met me, and where the Lord has brought me! He sure has saved me! Wow! Its amazing! Well I had an amazing weekend of catching up, praying with them, playing with their sweet boys and doing a little shopping! The Lord is so good to me! I love this family!
LoVe…
I think the Lord always brings me back to this…its all about LOVE! Its all about loving Him, understanding His love, and loving others. Which are the 2 greatest commandments. I’m really struggling, in all this death to myself, to love others. I am getting frustrated and upset and impatient. Its really awful. I don’t want to be like this. I want to love them, I want to value them. There is so much of Amanda in me still and not enough Jesus! One of the verses I’ve been meditating on is John 3:30 which says, “He must increase, but I must decrease.” I want more of Him in me! Actually I want it to be all Jesus living through me! Oh man, is this the hardest thing ever. My spirit is willing, but my flesh is weak. Oh so weak.
So pray for me please….
I am sure in need right now. Thanks so much everyone! You all are amazing…
I can’t think of any other updates…except that I love my MOM AND DAD AND SISTER!!!!!!!!! They are amazing and I miss them so much! Lord, love on my family! Have a wonderful night or day…which ever it is when you read this.
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