Break in God!

These past few days the Lord has really been working in my heart concerning loving others. The first commandment is love God and the second is love others as yourself. So there is three things: Love God, love yourself, and love others. I struggle in all of these areas. Lately I have really had a hard time loving others, and not everyone, but certain people. The Lord is really exposing my heart. My first instinct, when they start bothering me is to judge and be critical. And I start to think about all the things that are wrong with them. Then the Lord shows me that really I am being prideful, judgmental, and critical. Oh how I want to be like Jesus! And when I start wrestling and struggling with something like this it shows me the ugliness of my flesh and the holiness of God! I desperately do not want to be like this! I was really struggling last night, just praying and asking the Lord to give me a supernatural love for others, and I decided to wake up my roommate (Carol) and ask her to pray for me. I could not fall asleep! I explained to her what I was thinking and praying. She then reminded me that back in August and September I was at a place I didn’t want to be and I kept crying out to the Lord to change me, and He did! With this situation God is going to give me grace and strength, and finish the work He started in me. My prayer and my heart is to love Him without anything hindering that and that is His heart too. He will answer my cries! I just have to press in. BREAK-IN GOD! Change me, and make me more like You!